Sunday, January 22, 2012

A Revelation

It's been a while since I have my face plastered in my blog with a makeup look and I apologize. I do promise to be posting makeup looks by the next month. There's so much going on in my life lately: preparing for my board exam and family problems that has kept me from doing makeup posts. I have, however, been writing a lot of reviews and hauls. You must be wondering, how come even with all the stress I am experiencing right now I still have a lot of blog posts up? Well, I find that writing in this blog of mine during my most troubled times keeps me from over thinking things.

Let me reveal something to you, my dear readers. A week ago my dad was hospitalized and was diagnose with Guillain Barre Syndrome (GBS). An autoimmune neuromuscular disease wherein the body attacks itself with its major sign and symptom as ascending paresthesias (numbness) and pain. My whole world turned upside down immediately. My dad is back in the Philippines whilst I have recently moved to the U.S. with my mom. He is basically alone in the hospital with a few other relatives and friends frequently checking up on him. GBS, if not treated immediately and if the condition worsens, will lead to either paralysis or God forbid, death. 

Since I was little it has always been me, my dad and my grandma together. When I was in high school and we moved houses, it has been the two of us. Living in Jersey since April of 2011 has been the longest time I've been without my dad and it sucks because I dearly miss him. Imagine just how devastated I was when I learned about his condition. I am a daughter and a nurse who can't even take care of her own father since I'm miles away. For at least 24 hours since I heard the news and the diagnosis I went into depression. I was alternating between sleep and crying. I look so horrible and a mess. People who received such news as I did would probably ask God why this is happening. I never questioned Him. 

I'm a Catholic but I must admit that I'm not too religious although since December I haven't missed a Sunday mass. I guess it has been so long since I have been continuously present at mass and professing my faith that I am being tested now. And I must say that my faith in God has not wavered. Through tough times I can only turn to Him. Staying positive, praying and lifting everything up to Him is all I can do.

Yesterday, I called my dad and he said that he is feeling better. In fact, the doctors are discharging him from the hospital. For the past week he has been undergoing treatment for his condition to prevent the numbness from ascending. He reports still feeling numb on his hands and feet but he is feeling stronger by the moment. He still has to go through continuous, regular check up and physical rehabilitation so he would completely recovery.

Today, I went to church again. This time thanking the Lord for his gift to me. I believe that it's not only the treatment that's working but the prayers that my friends and the rest of our family is offering. I am extremely grateful to Him for being there with my dad and for hearing my, our prayers. 

Never lose faith, never lose hope. If you think you're having a tough time, think about how lucky you are and that other people may be having a tougher time than you do. And if you think that it is impossible to go on, pray and lift all your worries to Him for He hears even the silent cries of our hearts.


  1. I'm sorry to hear about your father. I hope he gets well soon and quick :) Best wishes :)

  2. Thanks dear. I greatly appreciate it. :)

  3. Hi Joanne, Always think positive and trust it with God and most of all be strong....Take care

  4. lovely post, and I'm so glad that your dad is doing well now too! I agree that one should never loose faith :)

  5. Sigma: As I say in the post, the brushes are: F05# Small Conotur de Sigma and E50# Large Fluff de Sigma. You can enlarge images by clicking on them to see them better. I have other Sigma brushes and I have no problems with it!


  6. Hi Joanne
    I can't imagine how hard this must be and I hope your father gets well soon. Keep strong and positive! Best wishes to you and your family. And I'm looking forward to your new blogposts. :) Take care!

  7. Hey hun! I was wearing the XXL Hyper Circle Black in that post :) Hope you're doing well :D x

  8. aww...hun. i'm so sorry about your dad. I hope things start to look up soon. <3


  9. Omg im so sorry to hear cuz :( hope hes getting a lot better now. Pls send him our love, thoughts and prayers xxo


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